bUmP-date

I will be entering the 2nd trimester this week, and I couldn't be happier. This pregnancy has been more difficult than the last, and I have really been struggling.

When I found out I was pregnant, I had so many mixed emotions. I was thrilled to find out we were able to get pregnant so soon after the miscarriage, but also anxious and nervous that we could lose this one, too. Shortly after, morning sickness and extreme fatigue set in. For about two months straight, I did nothing but work (had to) and sit on the couch taking Zofran around the clock. Getting myself off the couch was dreadful. I can't count on one hand how many times I stepped foot in a grocery store that whole time. It. Was. Miserable. All that made it a little difficult to be so excited, when I felt so horrible. Once I shared the news publicly, and others shared their enthusiasm and joy- it really helped me to feel excited.

Aside from the morning sickness, I have also been struggling with extreme mood swings and irritability. The smallest of things cause me to get upset, and unfortunately Kyle and Emma are the ones around the most and feel the effects of it. Oh boy, it is a horrible feeling for lashing out over something ridiculous.

Kyle and I planned on 5 kids... He's down to 4, and me, I think we'll call it good now. Of course, I told him to just ignore whatever I said about that until this pregnancy is over. Hormones can really impair judgement. ;)

Luckily, Kyle has been a HUGE help. I can't imagine making it through that dark time without him! And Emma, oh my sweet Emma. I love that little angel. Poor girl has been teething for the past two weeks, and had a cold on top of that. 4 molars all at once. We've been fun to be around...

Bleh. Sorry for the down-er post. 

 

I really am excited to welcome this sweet spirit into our home. Sometimes I don't know why Heavenly Father trusted me with Emma, and to know He's allowing us to have another one... I am beyond grateful. One thing I've been reminded of lately, is that I cannot do this alone. At times I think I've got the hang of it, I'm doing great, and then things get rough and my positivity wavers. I realize that it has a lot to do with my lack of reliance on my Heavenly Father. I cannot do it without His help. Who am I to raise His children without His guidance, strength, wisdom, and love? I can't. I know that now, more than ever. I am thankful for tender moments that He gives us to help remind us just how reliant we are- we must be- on Him.

Positively Positive

We are thrilled to announce

 our rainbow baby

Arriving May, 2015!!

Meet My Family

These are the wonderful people I call family. Family means everything to me, and I'm lucky  to have these individuals stuck with me forever!

THE GOMEZ FAMILY

(L-R) Nathan, Emily, Josh, Evelyn, Papa Mark, Momma Janae, Steven, 

Chuki (frankie jr), Azalea, Sarah, Frank, Me, Emma, Kyle.

THE MCRAE FAMILY

(L-R) Kyle, Emma, Me, Daniel, Steve, Sharon, Harper, Owen, 

Lindsay, Walker, Laynie, Rayder, Whitney.

Paradise Creek

We never took one year photos of our little nature lover, so we took advantage of the beautiful scenery when we went for our first family campout. Emma had already been camping twice before- but this was the first of many for our little family. I grew up camping in the White Mountains of AZ, there is no better place to camp in this state in my humble opinion.

As I've mentioned before, Emma couldn't be happier than when she is outdoors. For most of the photo shoot I couldn't even keep her shoes on! She wanted to touch the bugs, run in the grass, get in the icy cold water. She was in heaven. The photos of her were taken at Paradise Creek- the name says it all. It is on the res, and they stopped allowing camping in this specific area quite a long time ago. I'm sure that adds to the natural beauty. Also, the peach dress she is wearing is the same dress that I wore in my one year photos. An aunt on my dad's side made it for me. Precious, right?! She wears it so well. :)

When we were packing up to leave she cried and was so sad. Every morning she would spring up and head to the front of the tent, anxious for us to let her out. It was priceless. Here are some photos of our fun adventure, enjoy!